again

i shouldn't be going through this again.
i have done nothing wrong.
for the first time i am sure.
sure of my heart. sure of him.
sure of nothing.

i'm scared. i'm lonely.
i'm hurt.

no really. it hurts.

when i walk.
it's bruised, my foot.

when i breath.
it's broken, my heart.

i shouldn't be going through this again.
i have done nothing wrong.
for the last time i am afraid.
afraid of my heart. afraid of a man.
afraid of everything.

start over? without him?
i'm still in love.
not again. no, please not again.

go to hell

another dreaded text from an abuser?!
wishing me well.
'hope you're surrounded by happiness'.
go to hell i say!

but he didn't.

why won't this woman beater leave me alone?!
'to move forward, i must make ammends'.
go to hell i say!

but he didn't.

in my place he thanked him.
asked politely to stop texting.
go to hell, i would have said!

it was you who chose to be with him.
you should have seen it coming.
why should he go to hell?

every damn stereotype!
i must rebut.

it was trickery, i tell you!
i saw it too late!

the blame is not mine!
nor is the shame!

if you do not see this,
you can do the same!
go to hell i say!